"I normally never do this, but...."

      "I normally never do this, but..." I decided I wanted to give this entry a title because first of all; I must warn you I will use it a lot in the entry. Second of all: It's a phrase people commonly use. From the simplest things like: "I normally never do this, but I decided to try a different road today.", to more dangerous things like: "I normally never do this... but sure I'll have another tequila shot.". It can lead to great things, it can even be part of a wedding speech: "I normally never do this, but that day I decided to go to that baseball game. And there she was.". Or it can be part of an embarrassing story; "I normally never do this, but a kiss on the first date can't be thaaaat bad. Right?" Anyways, you get the point. 

        So today, I will say that I normally never do this, but today I feel like complaining. And the thing is I hate it when people complain about everything. But today is just one of those days. I tried to focus in all that is good, but I couldn't. The sky was even beautiful, the weather, everything. But I wasn't feeling it. Ever felt like you don't know who to call when you feel angry, or sad, or upset about different things, and you just need someone to not even talk to, just be with? Well, that's what today felt like. Like exactly the day that nobody could be there for me was the day I needed people the most. Talk about perfect timing. I just sometimes wish I had a special person I could count on for these kind of days. Someone who wouldn't hesitate on trying to make me feel better, o who knew me well enough to make me feel better even without words. I feel kind of lonely. And I normally never do this, but if no one is going to be there for you, at least writing will. Right?